it's new alright, but it is making my biological cloack older before i realized it. i think about all the disasterous things that i had to endure just to pass this few weeks of the new semester, well it wears me down. I had a couple of argument, shed a bit of tears, and added a few kilos..just when i thought things couldn't get worst people starts to complain bout my weight and appearance..well i do admit that i've always had this silly feeling of insecure about myself..apparently, i dont blame others for complaining. being highly ambitious, i always brag that by the new semester they will see the new version of me..the one who can fit into size s n look stunning in it..basically, i'm not fat and my body mass index is okay..but somehow i envy those who posses the portion of a model..why??because they look drop dead georgeous wearing anything..okay maybe not anything (lingeries and swimswear my not look so good in them)..but its hard without sheer determination to lose weight..because i love food and when i'm depressed( which usually happen) i carve for them. .still nothing is impossible. i've done it once..so i believe i can do it again..time will tell..
This is the first time i'm writing a blog..so please considered yourself lucky..i'm not ashamed to tell you this because being a 'reserved' person (this is how my mother describe me) i rarely share my feeling or exposed myself with others.But dont get me wrong, i do mix around and live in a healthy social life.. i don't need to explain more..hmm..i need to stop now..we'll get in touch latter..so wait for my second blog..papai..
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